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Flutters.

Dear baby,

I am feeling little flutters in my belly today for the first time, and I’m pretty sure it’s you moving around in there. I’ve never felt anything quite like this before. It’s pretty amazing to know you’re growing in me, stretching your tiny frame, fluttering inside of me like a butterfly.

I’ve been waiting for this moment for a long time. It is not only a reassurance that you are doing well, but it also makes me filled with that much more anticipation of what’s to come. You’re just in the beginning stages of development now, and in less that five months from now you will be my child. These flutters take away from every distraction, every stress, and fill me with a peace that knows my life is going to change forever.

With love,
Momma

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Healthy baby.

Dear baby,

I wish I knew what was “normal” during pregnancy. I just want to know you’re doing okay in there. Today was an off day and I just wasn’t hungry all day. You’re very indecisive – some days you make me eat everything in sight, while I also have days like today where my stomach doesn’t feel that great and I have no appetite. I eat when I feel like I should take care of myself and you.

I hope you’re holding strong in there. I wish I could see you and hear your heart beat every day. It gives me a sense of relief to know that everything is going along as planned. There’s just this small remaining¬†fear in me of what could possibly go wrong. I just want to know that you are healthy and that everything is coming along great.

Did you know that I pray for you almost every day? I pray for you to be healthy and strong, and I also pray for your daddy and me. I pray for God to protect you and keep you healthy, and I pray for us to be Godly parents who will love and take care of you. I pray for our family to honor God and that He would be with and protect us all.

With love,
Momma

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Gender.

Dear baby,

Your daddy and I still haven’t decided whether to find out your gender in a few weeks or when we meet you face to face. It seems most people these days find out ahead of time so they can plan ahead, prepare the nursery in boy or girl themes and let their friends and family know what to expect. Everyone seems to prefer to know who you are before you even arrive. Somehow, it seems to make the process easier and more fun. When my friends have had babies, I even wanted to know the gender — because who doesn’t love shopping for cute girly or boy items?

Being on the other side, carrying you in me, not knowing is completely different. The element of surprise both fills me with joy and anxious anticipation. I would be tickled if you were a girl I could play dress up and dolls with or ecstatic if you were a boy I could play trucks and games with. More than anything, I just want to hold you close, teach you things and have fun with you. I can see your daddy taking care of his little princess or teaching his little boy how to play soccer for the first time.

I know there is no right or wrong answer, just simply the desires of my heart. No matter when your daddy and I find out your gender, nothing will surpass the surprise and joy of when I finally get to meet you and fall in love with you when I see you for the first time. I cannot wait for that moment, when I finally get to hold you in my arms and call you my son or daughter.

With love,
Momma

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Heartbeat.

Dear baby,

I’ll never forget the first time I saw you. You were a microscopic dot on a screen, a peanut-sized being with little nubs for arms and legs. You were just 8 weeks old. Your daddy and I just stared at you with awe; we had no words to describe the incredible moment.

The best part was what happened next. “Here is the heartbeat,” the doctor said to us, and a second later we heard you. Your thunderous heart beating in our ears at what seemed a mile a minute. Your daddy squeezed my hand and we looked at each other with such joy and anticipation to meet you.

It was that day that changed me from knowing I was pregnant to knowing I was going to be a mom and that you’re going to change my life forever. And I can’t wait.

With love,
Momma

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Dear baby.

Dear baby,

I cannot wait to meet you. It still doesn’t feel real, in spite of my growing belly, the dizziness you make me feel when I stand up or the constant pangs of hunger throughout the day. It’s hard to believe that after months of hoping and praying that you are now growing inside of me, and in just a few more months I’ll get to meet you.

I’ll never forget when I found out you were coming. It was the most surreal, joyful moment of my life. I cried and laughed with your dad as we held each other in disbelief. Our little miracle was growing. You were once a thought in our minds, a hope in our hearts and now you are a joy we are eagerly expecting to arrive. There’s so much to do and think about, but all I want to do is enjoy this time. Knowing you are waiting to enter this world just as eagerly as we are waiting for you.

With love,
Momma