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A momma’s love

Dear baby girl,

The snow has fallen, we’ve got sub-zero windchills and I’ve been baking up a storm. It’s beginning to look a lot like Christmas!

Even though you’re obviously too young to know and understand the holidays, I am very much enjoying celebrating the season with you here. From baking cookies to shopping for your gifts to listening to Christmas music with you, I am having so much fun getting into the holiday spirit. You have made this season that much more special.

At our church Christmas party a couple weeks ago, I was talking with a friend about being a new momma. She is married but doesn’t have kids yet, and she told me that she loved just how “obsessed” I am with you. As a proud momma, I do post a lot of pictures of you in addition to sharing this blog. To some it may come across as a bit much, but to me it feels natural to show you off to the world. I want nothing more than to share your beauty for others to see and know just how perfect you are.

There’s something inside me that changed the moment I became your momma. With each day you grow and change, I become that much more enamored with you. My heart leaps at the sight of you, and it overflows with you in my arms. Words cannot describe the love that I feel for you. It is a kind of love that I never knew was possible. The love I have for you, which I am sure all mommas have for their children, is one that is sacrificial, unconditional, never-ending. It makes me understand and appreciate my own momma that much more.

It is with this love that I share you with the world. As we get ready to celebrate Christmas, I have that much more of a grasp of the depths of God’s love — for His son that He brought into the world and for us as His children. God so loved the world that He wanted to share Jesus with us, for Him to become God in the flesh, love personified.

Love is the reason for the season. The love God has for us, and the love we are to share with one another. Love for our families, love for our friends and neighbors. As I look forward to celebrating Christmas with family the next few days, my heart is filled to the brim. I am so thankful and blessed this holiday season. And you are the best gift of all.

With love,
Momma

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Happy One Month Birthday!

Dear baby girl,

I can’t believe you’re one month old today!

Hannah 2
Pretty in pink! 

It feels like it’s only been a few days – time has flown by. With visitors coming and going and the Thanksgiving holiday, we have had a busy month filled with family and friends. And you of course!

Hannah 7
I got a sweet smile from you this morning! 

Somewhere in the midst of the first few sleepless days after you were born, in the wee hours of the morning when I was up with you, I was overwhelmed with this feeling that I needed to let go of the things that I worry about that don’t matter. I am pretty good at over-thinking things and being anxious about the unknown. Having a newborn baby where I need to learn as I go is a life-changing experience for me in many ways. I am not only experiencing the joys of raising you, but I am also feeling myself being challenged and changed as a person.

Last week, it hit me. The words “be still” were laid on my heart. As a person who loves crossing things off to-do lists and is always thinking about what needs to be done, these words hit home. I was stressing about things to do before the Thanksgiving holiday when I knew I needed to just be still.

God impressed on my heart that just as we need to be still before Him and be in His presence, I must also do the same with you. Enjoy you and our time together. Everything else can wait. Be still and be present. Embrace what matters most. In the midst of the chaos that is life, I must always remember to be still in our time together and not be worrying about other things I could or should be doing.

Since then, each day I am making sure to take moments to be still with you. Whether I am singing you to sleep, taking way too many pictures of you or holding you and feeling your tiny body rest against mine, I am embracing life as your momma. Everything else can wait.

Hannah 5
One of the many pictures of you I took of you today  🙂

I’m one month in, and I know the coming ones are going to go by just as quickly. Pretty soon I will be going back to work and this time together will be a treasure in my heart. I will find the time every day to be still with you, enjoy you and make sure you know just how much I love you.

With love,

Momma