Dear baby girl,
As I listen to the blustery wind howling against the windows and through the trees tonight, I am thankful that I don’t have to go anywhere tomorrow and that I get to spend the day with you. This winter has been colder than most, and I have to admit I am pretty grateful to be able to hibernate with you. We have had lots of visitors come to us, though!
I was originally going to return to work this week, but a couple weeks ago, as I got closer to my return date, I just wasn’t ready yet. My heart longed for just a little more time with you. Time I know I will never get back. I wanted another week of day-long playing, discovering, snuggling, and yes, even doing random things around the house.
Thankfully, my job is pretty flexible, and I was still covered under FMLA to stay with you another week. I am so excited to be with you just a little bit longer! Even though we’ll be stuck indoors due to sub-zero temps the next couple days, I look forward to just a few more days of Momma/Hannah time.
My heart is both heavy and full as I look ahead, but I am (almost) ready to return to work. The first week back will be part time as I work half days, since I know it will be a hard transition for both of us. As much as I have enjoyed hibernation, I am (almost) ready to get back into the swing of things and find a new “normal” for us. It’s going to be tough for awhile as we both figure things out, but I know we’ll find our groove. We’ll find our balance between work, activities, friends and family. I have to admit, I am starting to get cabin fever and am going a little stir crazy. I am looking forward to getting out and doing more both on my own and with you.
I know that it will be overwhelming at first, and I’m sure I’ll have my moments where it is going to be harder than I ever imagined possible, but I also know that at the end of the day, you are what is most important to me. You are my number one priority. No matter how overwhelming life’s circumstances may be or how stressed I may feel, I’m your Momma who loves you more than anything in the world, and nothing will ever change that.
I am so incredibly thankful for the past 11 weeks we’ve had together. I have seen you change so much, and my love for you has grown more than I ever thought possible. We’ve had a blast snuggling, baking and cooking together, discovering toys (you figured out how to push the toys on your play gym a couple weeks ago!), and even rocking tummy time.
I am so incredibly blessed to be your Momma and to have been able to enjoy this time with you. I look forward to our last week of 24/7 Momma/Hannah time!