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Our time together

Dear baby girl,

As I listen to the blustery wind howling against the windows and through the trees tonight, I am thankful that I don’t have to go anywhere tomorrow and that I get to spend the day with you. This winter has been colder than most, and I have to admit I am pretty grateful to be able to hibernate with you. We have had lots of visitors come to us, though!

I was originally going to return to work this week, but a couple weeks ago, as I got closer to my return date, I just wasn’t ready yet. My heart longed for just a little more time with you. Time I know I will never get back. I wanted another week of day-long playing, discovering, snuggling, and yes, even doing random things around the house.

Thankfully, my job is pretty flexible, and I was still covered under FMLA to stay with you another week. I am so excited to be with you just a little bit longer! Even though we’ll be stuck indoors due to sub-zero temps the next couple days, I look forward to just a few more days of Momma/Hannah time.

My heart is both heavy and full as I look ahead, but I am (almost) ready to return to work. The first week back will be part time as I work half days, since I know it will be a hard transition for both of us. As much as I have enjoyed hibernation, I am (almost) ready to get back into the swing of things and find a new “normal” for us. It’s going to be tough for awhile as we both figure things out, but I know we’ll find our groove. We’ll find our balance between work, activities, friends and family. I have to admit, I am starting to get cabin fever and am going a little stir crazy. I am looking forward to getting out and doing more both on my own and with you.

I know that it will be overwhelming at first, and I’m sure I’ll have my moments where it is going to be harder than I ever imagined possible, but I also know that at the end of the day, you are what is most important to me. You are my number one priority. No matter how overwhelming life’s circumstances may be or how stressed I may feel, I’m your Momma who loves you more than anything in the world, and nothing will ever change that.

I am so incredibly thankful for the past 11 weeks we’ve had together. I have seen you change so much, and my love for you has grown more than I ever thought possible. We’ve had a blast snuggling, baking and cooking together, discovering toys (you figured out how to push the toys on your play gym a couple weeks ago!), and even rocking tummy time.

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Photo credit: Daddy

I am so incredibly blessed to be your Momma and to have been able to enjoy this time with you. I look forward to our last week of 24/7 Momma/Hannah time!

With love,

Momma

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The nursery is complete!

Dear baby girl,

Even though you’re almost 11 weeks old and I still have one thing left on the to-do list for your nursery, it’s about time I post some pictures!

I just love the feeling of the calm, cozy space when you walk in the door. Your daddy says it’s the most decorated room in the house.

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The view from the doorway of the nursery.

The only thing left to complete is to fill the shelves on the wall and your bookshelf. I want to put some pictures in frames on the little shelves under your name and hope to get that done soon!

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Changing area. There are many “poo” jokes that have been said already.

I opted to go with a dresser to put a changing pad on top of, rather than purchasing a separate changing table. I love the convenience of changing and picking out your outfit for the day. Some days you are very patient with me when we play dress up. It’s fun to see what you fit into as you slowly grow. You’re almost fitting into three months clothes! That is the size I received the most of as gifts, so you will have lots of clothes when they all finally fit. Here are a couple that already do!

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Your crib – I just love it. And you sleep pretty good in here, too!

I just love everything about your crib – the bedding set, the crib itself, and how well you sleep in it. I’m a lucky momma! We don’t actually keep the blanket on the crib, for safety purposes, but it looked nice for the picture. 🙂 When you are big enough you will get to sleep with the blanket.

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Storage central! Love the cubbies and the bookshelf we got at Target.

One of the things I love about your nursery is the book collection. You can see some of them in that basket, and we have almost an entire shelf full on your bookshelf. These are all gifts we received at showers from family and friends. We’ve read several already – you really love ones that have rhymes, like Dr. Seuss.

You can see a couple empty shelves that will soon be full of more books and toys as you get older. I can’t wait to see you grow into your room and enjoy it. One of the neat things about not knowing your gender is that this nursery will also work well for a possible younger brother or sister someday. Then you’ll get your big girl bedroom! Wow, I am getting way too ahead of myself here. 🙂

I’m so happy your nursery is complete! It was a lot of fun picking things out and watching Daddy put it together. 🙂 We make a good team. I hope someday you enjoy it as much as we do!

With love,
Momma

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Pride and Joy

Dear baby girl,

It’s so true when parents say children are their pride and joy. There are no better words to describe how I feel about you and being your momma.

Pride is…

Watching you discover the world around you one day at a time.
Seeing you interact – with me, with Daddy and with others.
Knowing how far we’ve come in our nursing relationship, and creating that bond with you.
Having you grow and change before me – discovering toys, lights, books, and even your hands.
Listening to you “talk” and “sing” as you take in everything.
Being able to provide and care for such a beautiful, sweet girl.

Joy is…

Seeing you light up and smile when you recognize my face and my voice.
Listening to your coos and hums when you sleep.
Watching the delight you have when we play together.
Listening to your soft breath when I hold you close, feeling the rise and fall of your chest against mine.
Not letting you go, holding you that much longer to enjoy the beauty of our time together.
Everything about you: your tiny hands, long eyelashes, beautiful eyes, cute dimple and adorable smile.

Being your momma fills me with so much pride and joy each and every day. I am proud of how far we’ve come and of who you are. And the joy that fills my heart bursts with delight in you, your perfection.

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You, my angel, are my pride and joy.

With love,
Momma